So... over the last few weeks (and months) I haven't really been pulling any new magic tricks out of my top hat, in other words, I haven't been making any "new" artworks or really writing journals due to a severe lacking of motivation. And if I do create a new piece of artwork I don't even feel like showing it to anyone... I just haven't had the drive. Granted I made two gift artworks recently, but in a way there was a level of cheating in it since I made the main subject of those pieces in Sims3 rather than drawing them myself. In all fairness those were basically just embellished screenshots. Don't get me wrong, I have tons of admiration for artists that create artworks from a combination of Sims3 screenshots and photoshop editing... some pieces are incredible, but as soon as I do similar, I just don't feel that I'm really putting any effort into it. *shrugs* I guess that's just my self criticism talking though.
But my lack of motivation has also been leaking into other areas as well:
I don't feel like playing games.... I'm not bored with them, I just haven't felt the need to
I lost my muse to write posts for the text based RPG that I am a Co-Admin of, and while our main admin is away for various reasons I admit that I have slacked off on even my admin duties because of my lack of drive. I am there to answer questions, but I am not floating on the site all day like I usually am.
I am even less creative with my cooking, sticking to the most basic recipes that I know (not entirely resorting to jars), but never really trying anything new
I have no clue as to why I have felt this way as of late, but quite frankly I am getting tired of sitting around just reading webcomics and watching movies or pathetic daytime tv (there's never anything terribly good on). I'm bored I tell you... I am brain numbingly bored! Thank goodness for books though, I am never bored with books... though I do wish I had some new material to read. I recently got hooked on the Gene of Isis, first book of the Mystique trilogy by Traci Harding and I adored it. I desperately want to read the next installment but as funds are limited and free ebooks seem to be few and far between, I am not having much luck. And no I don't have an e-reader or a kindle, so I have to read my ebooks on the computer, and I aim for PDF format.
I hate reading them on the computer, wish I did have an e-reader. But I do love my ebooks regardless as they fill out my book collection nicely with books that I used to have some time in the past.
Still... the fact that I've managed to write two journals in a few days seems to suggest that I am starting to climb out of this motivational hole that I had inadvertently fallen into.
Also, if anyone is interested in joining a text based RPG that is set in a loosely medieval/renaissance time era in a fantasy world filled with vampires, elves, humans, and other such magical beings then feel free to check out:
Swords of Speirling. We have a mature rating, so be warned, but we are a friendly bunch of people and always happy for more members. If you pop into the site and have any questions, either I will answer (just shout for "Kel" in the chatbox), or another of the members will answer if I can't get to it. Either way help is always on hand.